I don't know but it seems lately I have been shipped with even more people at school 😶.
Someone please send help.
I hope you can read this.
I need to talk to you about something but to be honest I don't really know how to word it.
For about a year and a half now I haven't really felt myself to be honest with you.
The thing I am here to talk to you about is... Drum role... MY SEXUALITY!
1) No, I am not gay.
2) No, I don't believe myself to be a male in a female body.
What I have to say is that I am asexual.
Asexual- a person who does not experience sexual attraction in any form of the subject.
This is the point at which you (may) think I am "too" young to know this. Well, I don't believe I am.
I haven felt depressed for two years now but this feeling of unease have been here for about three.
Tumblr really introduced me to asexuality. It taught me about different sexualitys and how others feel the way I am feeling.
We are a sexuality many don't believe in. Less than 1% of the population in the UK is asexual and now I am included in this percentage.
I knew my emotions and I saw this word and thought... Google it. So I did and I ended up ticking off all the boxes.
It took me three weeks to fully understand this idea but I did.
I was asexual.
I am not shallow nor cold hearted or sad nor saying this because I am trying to be a "rebellious" teenager.
I am saying this because this is what I truly believe. Maybe one day I will love someone and then feel attracted to them but until then I won't really know.
For now, I have placed myself as a boarder line asexual and boarder line demi-sexual.
And that's okay!
I am not broken or lost. I am healthy and normal just not great at expressing love in the normal, conform of society's rules.
I love you.
Don't cry, please.
Equally, don't be angry.
Talk to you soon... Probably.
So, I bought this book of Amazon.com a few days ago and last night I started to read it. It was so good that I decided to start and annotate the book for future references.
It is totally worth the buy and gives you a very detailed and simplified overall look into an asexuals life.
If you are new to asexuality it is a good starting point and even if you are like me and you think you know everything it is still nice to read other people's experiences.
I bought a bow from dexlar on etsy.com and it is honestly the nicest thing in the whole world!
It came just in time for asexual awareness week (26th-2nd November) and it had a lovely message that read:
Thank you for your order and Happy asexual awareness week! <3
(Maybe you guys should go buy one 😉)